I'm scared.
I met with my superb mentoring group for dinner and a little chat. It was supposed to be an out of town trip, but because of several reasons, we settled for a simple dinner treat by our beloved (and much coveted) mentor. It was fun and the chat started with gossip, med school memories, tips, boards etc. It was until the post dinner coffee chat that we talked about the more important things. That's when it dawned on me. I am scared alright. Im scared of the future. I am scared of the board exams. I am more scared of what's in store after the boards (given that I pass). Im 25, in a little over 5 months, I'll be 26. My mother got married when she was 27 and had me at 28, and built her life around us since then. Some say we shouldn't bother with age. But I have eggs that are growing old, and follicles that barely mature because of PCOS. I want to have a family. I want to have children. I want to make a difference in the world. But that I can't do withou...
