Hodgepodge

I find myself searching for answers to questions I have not even asked.  I acknowledge the fact that I am missing something essential.  My life is not perfect, but I am thankful for what I have, really.  For several years, I am stuck in the same place, embracing all that is , looking forward to what can be , but choosing to be safe.  Things somehow just always fall into place anyway.  But why do I feel that I somehow lost something - something I cannot quite put my finger on.   Maybe it's time I move forward and resume the journey.  That piece of myself is somewhere out there.  

I Believe The Sun Should Never Set Upon An Argument I Believe We Place Our Happiness In Other People's Hands I Believe That Junk Food Tastes So Good Because It's Bad For You I Believe Your Parents Did The Best Job They Knew How To Do I Believe That Beauty Magazines Promote Low Self Esteem I Believe I'm Loved When I'm Completely By Myself Alone  I Believe In Karma What You Give Is What You Get Returned I Believe You Can't Appreciate Real Love Until You've Been Burned I Believe The Grass Is No More Greener On The Other Side I Believe You Don't Know What You've Got Until You Say Goodbye  I Believe You Can't Control Or Choose Your Sexuality I Believe That Trust Is More Important Than Monogamy I Believe Your Most Attractive Features Are Your Heart And Soul I Believe That Family Is Worth More Than Money Or Gold I Believe The Struggle For Financial Freedom Is Unfair I Believe The Only Ones Who Disagree Are Millionaires  I Believe In Karma What You Give Is W...

I'm sorry I had to change the address again .  

I met with my superb mentoring group for dinner and a little chat.  It was supposed to be an out of town trip, but because of several reasons, we settled for a simple dinner treat by our beloved (and much coveted) mentor.  It was fun and the chat started with gossip, med school memories, tips, boards etc.  It was until the post dinner coffee chat that we talked about the more important things.   That's when it dawned on me.  I am scared alright.  Im scared of the future.  I am scared of the board exams.  I am more scared of what's in store after the boards (given that I pass).  Im 25, in a little over 5 months, I'll be 26.  My mother got married when she was 27 and had me at 28, and built her life around us since then.  Some say we shouldn't bother with age.  But I have eggs that are growing old, and follicles that barely mature because of PCOS.  I want to have a family.  I want to have children.  I want to make a difference in the world.  But that I can't do withou...

1.  Anoop and Jason Mraz in one number. :-) 2.  Megan and Michael singing Pretty Flowers with Steve Martin. 3.  Kara's vindictive performance.

I used to like Anoop.  But now I am rooting for Adam .  He got a standing ovation, from SIMON COWELL!